I am in love with the city...I am in love with a boy. This song describes my life, with respect to my city and the boy:
I am true to my city, If I never see another city in all my years to come, I will die happy. My city is busy, dirty, noisy and easily misunderstood. I love London more than Carrie loves New york and ten times more than lovers love Paris. I love tea, I love Oxford street and I love the friendly man on the underground.
I love Nottinghill with all its splendour. I love Woolwich for all my lost memories and for its library right opposite Sainsburys. I have dreams bigger than Blackheath because my heart belongs to Greenwich. I know where the 51, 53, 274, 992 422 and 486 take me. My heart is aching to go on a big red bus and explore my city. I want to go further; see what is happening in Hackney and see the beauty hidden in the Tate.
I love the style. In this small town, nobody dresses to impress. Nobody makes a fuss about the fact that Zara can't be found and the only colours they recognise is blue and grey. I want the colour back, I miss the smell of fish and chips and seeing the school kids carrying their chicken boxes. I am too young to live in a town, I need to conquer the big City. Maybe it is because I am a londoner, but I am not home until I have LBC, Heart, Kiss and Choice on the FM. I am forever greatful for this small town because it has taught me so much about life and made me into a woman. But this town is too small for someone with a heart as big as mine.
I am in love with the city and I want to return but but I seem unable to because I am in love with a boy whose heart belongs to this small town. God help this girl because it is a love that doesn't love back but whether right or wrong it is as big as Mr Big. God help me because I am boring myself; preachers say a prayer for me because there is no way around it, he is in love with another girl...
"I am a wreck"
"I am tired and nervous"
I keep "the company of just myself"
"I laugh at my own jokes"
"He is in with his lifelong girl"
I am in love with the city I can't be in and in love with the boy I can't have. God help this girl